Photo by Mitchell Luo on Unsplash It’s amazing, the power in a word sticks and stones break my bones, words will only kill...
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It’s amazing, the power in a
word
sticks and stones break my bones,
words will only kill me
single phrases, barbed poison
or the absence of them: silent death
where no one hears your soul shriek
If I could give you special vision,
all painted in the aftermath of sentences,
you could see all these things you’ve said to me
and see each way they’ve hurt or healed
Looking at the tender half-healed scars,
you’d weep, apologetic–
but not enough
never quite enough
But even so, I’ll take these words of yours,
fold them up gently
(they have made me who I am)
and I will create with them
little paper birds and flowers,
something beautiful, soothing
And then I’ll give them back to you,
these words,
all folded up in pretty Japanese shapes
(my heart, my soul, my fears as one)
I have one word for you:
forgiven
NOTE: I wrote this in high school, and even though it’s a bit too on-the-nose, it struck me as being particularly appropriate for what I’ve been through in the past 2.5 years. So far, I haven’t been able to bring myself to write about that situation directly, but the wound must be drained in order to heal. I will write about it soon… but not today. Today, the pain is still too near.
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]]>in the abandoned garden, she waits,
cold marble lips,
feet melding with the block of stone
that gives her the semblance of life,
heart that has never beat buried deep.
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]]>in the abandoned garden, she waits,
cold marble lips,
feet melding with the block of stone
that gives her the semblance of life,
heart that has never beat buried deep.
moths visit her at dusk,
brushing powdery kisses
upon the graceful curve of her collarbone;
spiders burrow and breed in the cracks
time has carved into her hardened skin
while summer rain traces mute longing
down her cheeks.
from her lofty perch, the garden is an ocean,
waving golden grass gone to seed,
heavy clustered blooms forming islands
in shades of violent color
(blood, bone, bruise)
like a warning against trespassers,
against anyone who would dare awaken
her still-silent heart.
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]]>The Formative Power of Stories by Rina
There’s a wonderful quote by Meg Ryan’s character in the movie You’ve Got Mail : “When you read a book as a child,...
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]]>Benediction by Rina
She walks on wounded feet, carries white roses to the willow by the pond on the hill: three roses, the number of those...
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]]>Breathless by Rina
On the nights when God is silent,she curls up against the dark,her breath a thorn embedded in her throat.At last, all the questions spiral downinto...
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